"Little" Happiness

Little ones always make my heart really happy. I'm sure that it's for many, not just for me alone ! May them be the grass flowers unnoticed or even shapes of thin veins on green leaves, may them be the ordered spots in rangoli, may them be small poems like "stray birds", needless to say smiles of little babes, anything little for that matter.. Their simplicity is thier beauty, however. This happiness is not an excitement like the one which comes on a great achievement, it's not even bubbling joy like the one which comes after having long chat with a dear friend after long time, but touches the heart delicately and tenderly. It's is not like a wave with large amplitude, to make raises and falls noticable.. Ofcourse, it does raise and fall, but may be its "smallness" makes me feel that this "little" happiness is calm and steady.

"Restricted" Freedom

Restricted Freedom ?? If it is restricted, then what freedom is that, one might ask.. But, freedom, when restricted to certain "primitive" rules and regulations makes life much more easier.. I couldn't get convinced by this completely till recently, though said by one of my friends many times. Again, these rules and regulations should be transcended to feel the real and ultimate freedom. Unless one confines to these boundaries of rules for sometime, that too mindfully, the real freedom can never be felt or achieved.
It's just like this.. When a starter tries to play a musical instrument 'just like that', letting the fingers to take their own way, with complete freedom, he/she will not be able to utilise the power in that freedom, the result being just less than noise. Once they practise with various kinds of ragas ( Each Raga can be taken as "primitive" restriction), get feel N gain mastery over them, the play will be 'truly' free.. Crossing limits of existing ragas may even lead to creation of new ones..Whatever they play from then on, will be a masterpiece as they transcend the limits.

Unburdening ..

Yesterday, I was waiting for a bus at an odd hour about 10 PM. While everybody in the busstop seem to be a little nervous, whether buses do come at that time or not, two boys were playing joyfully there, which drew my attention. When some bus seems to be approaching the stop, people would hope it's the one that they r waiting for, when it is, would rush or else curse BMTC with a sigh.. But these boys were playing happily, not at all bothered by anything around. I wondered why ? Are they really waiting for bus or not, when i've seen their father(i think !) a bit distantly waiting for the bus eagerly as everybody else around..Needless to think, the feeling that the father would take care of their reaching home "completely" has made them free from the tensions others had. Anyone can imagine their situation without somebody to take care of. After sometime, their bus came, they coolly got into bus when their dad asked them to get in.
I thought for a moment, I wish I too had somebody there to whom I can unburden myself, just as those small boys. Why not ? Yes, I too have, only if i can rely "completely" on HIM to lead me in this Way.. Only if i can unburden myself by leaving everything to HIM.. Only if i'm ready to follow His orders at any N every point of time, without a second thought and hesitation.. Got reminded of the verse from Gita, SarvaDharmAn parityajya mAmEkam saranam vraja !